I have realised how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong - But to feel strong.

I heard this little quote in a movie i watched and just fell in love with it, the words seem to really hit me and stick with me, it is now a personal little motto =)

Today has been good - mixed emotions, a few tears some good some bad..

I had a really good day yesterday, i worked so was kept busy, bubbling from my loss, my god i felt so proud of myself, walked so tall... Got into work and Wayne was straight onto me, " whats the loss" - " 1.6" !! Jumps and hugs all around the kitchen!! It was lovely, about ten minutes later he tells me i look like a clown and must invest in some new work pants - i knew they were getting loose, just didn't realise how much!

I got home, picked up the children from next door, i have the most lovely dear little old lady who lives next door, and she thrives on my kids, they visit her and talk to her daily, she doesn't see her own grandkids often so i think she gets just as much out of it as the kiddies =) Got home, sat on my butt, then had KFC for dinner ( 2 pc feed with no drink or chips) didn't feel guilty at all - didn't do a workout cause i was too stuffed! ( felt a little guilty about that )

TODAY - was good, got up and decided i was going to go and get some new work pants, bundled up the kiddies and off we went to town , went into Millers as they are always a little cheaper for nice slacks and found some really nice gorgeous ones for 29.95 - took a size 18 into the change rooms, the pair I'm wearing now are a millers size 20 - ugh. Anyways, put the 18 on, they fitted but felt loose but not heaps loose if that makes sense.....then i was thinking if i stay on track i wont wear them long - then out of pure curiosity i thought i would try a 16 - just to see how far away i would be ---- THEY FIT ME. perfectly, not tight, not loose, this cant be possible... me in a size 16 pants. NO WAY!! must be a misprint on the size, goes and gets another size 16, tried them on again, on my lord they do fit me, i am a size 16!!! I stood in that little room, my kiddies on a stool and sobbed my eyes out - pure happiness.

Feeling great - but not convinced, i left them there and went across to Target, grabbed a size 16 there and tried them on - HOLY BANANAS they fit me too!!! Cried again... went back to Millers, grabbed the initial pair of slacks and went to the register....

Me - These are a size 16

Sales Assistant - Yep, Just those?

Me - They fit me

SA - laughs - ok?

Me - I don't think you understand, they are a size 16 and they fit me, tears.

SA - I'm sorry - are you ok?

Me - yes I'm great, they are a 16!!!!!!!!

Anyways, she must think I'm a complete nutter, but i did tell her the last pair i bought were a size 20 - and that was after losing 20 odd kilo, so before that i was pushing a size 24 - SHIT.

So I'm feeling rather chuffed today - got home and rang my mother in the most pure excitement ever - then poor ol Jimmy had me screaming down the phone - Lol it was most funny... Not much else went on today, cleaning, washing, normal duties - did a big workout this arvo - stats...

* 1 hr 9 Min's

* 894 Calories

Max - 185-106%

* Avg - 143 - 82%

The last 9 Min's don't count as i forgot to stop the HR monitor.. lol. Impressed with that, happy and heading to the size 14.. woo hoo.