I wanted to wake up today and have new clarity, new zing, new excitement over my life.. But I haven' t. I think i might turn back to Louise Hay today, do some reading and get my affirmations started again.. I' m not working because the children have a pupil free day, I don't think I will be in my job much longer, it just doesn't work with the kids....
I thought some more about my list of things I like to do..

3. Cooking - I enjoy cooking and more so entertaining, I don't like cooking for myself.
4. Sunday sessions in the beer garden, I haven't done that for years, sat outside on a nice day, listening to a live band, having a beer, play a little keno, once again though, Its not something I like doing alone.
5. Gardening .. I don't have a garden at this house, and I miss watching plants grow
6. I haven't been to the cinema since 1997, and I think I would like to go again. I enjoy movies, at home as well.
7. Reading in the park. Watching my kids play while I sit or lie down with a good book.
8...
Yeah I need more time.. It's harder than I thought. When I have this list done I' m going to start another list, this time about things I want to find in my next relationship - That will be easier. haha.
Louise L Hay - Is a writer who has picked me up many times over the years, I have her books and audio CD' s, I have her affirmation cards all over my house.. She believes that everything we think we in turn create, if we believe and think our lives are shite, then it will be.. Basically, she teaches me to put out in the world what I want back, Its basically the law of attraction, changing the way we think, in order to attract the things we need/want. And it works.. I have done it many times. So, back to the books.!

" All that I need to know at any given moment is revealed to me. I trust Myself, and I trust life"