I got a little emotional last night - This weight loss thing can be very frustrating, the scales are moving but slowly, and i seem to lose every second week, when i really want to lose EVERY week - disheartening, however I'm shrinking - I wore a pair of jeans today i couldn't get over my hips just 5 weeks ago, so I'm doing something right- slow and steady i suppose.

So I have finally met a man i want to give my heart and soul to fully - yet I'm scared outta my mind and cant possibly believe its real - sound familiar? It does to me - Self sabotage maybe, Can i really have this, a new life, a happy life, a family , is it real?? I hope so, i truly do.

Jim is amazing, he is smart and funny and caring and he makes me laugh and just seeing his name when he texts makes me smile before i even read it - he tells me I'm gorgeous, he encourages me with my weight loss, he looks at me when he speaks to me, he - ahh he is wonderful, what more can i possibly say - I'm just too scared to really FEEL it. Im going to stay with him for 5 days of Easter, the kids are going to their fathers wedding ( that's a whole nother post that) - so I'm going to the farm, I'm very excited to see him again - to feel him... 4 sleeps to go!!!