Hey Hey I didn't blog yesterday - Was not a good day - at all.

- Well the start of my day was GREAT! If your a regular reader, you will remember me going to the Dr 4 weeks ago, for a chit chat about weight loss, the effects of implanon and such other stuff, The Dr's scales were very different to mine but decided to use the Dr's as she has offered to weight me monthly and keep me on track etc - ANYWAYS- according to her scales i lost 6kg for the 4 weeks... Every time i weigh at home I'm a little unsure, not convinced totally , so it was awesome to know i was correct and the numbers i had were the same! Yay!! Great news, massive good start to my day ---

- And then the phone rang , had to start work early, as the carpets got cleaned and i had to reset the entire dining room - alone! Thanks fuckers - Got me behind for my usual duties, and realised that the silly cow that did the dinner shift, didn't do her jobs, kindly leaving them for me.. I can not stand that woman, she makes me so angry, i asked her last week why she doesn't do the List and she said " I cant be fucked" direct quote - If i had a little more power i would have her sacked, i have managed to get her hours dropped - But, she shouldn't be there - We are supposed to work together to help each other, her not doing the dinner duties, leaves me with double work - AND i still have to serve and wait on a room full of people - So, work was shitty, i was shitty, hence already in a bad mood!

- THEN, i went mothers day shopping - walked around shops for an hour and a half, came home with nothing, have NO idea what to get my mummy this year... More shitty now...

- Could not be bothered working out, so i didn't - now I'm just angry at myself

- THEN, the children's father, whom i don't have a good relationship with decided to really top my day off, he wont have the children for the school holidays unless i pay for half the airfares, 300 dollars - yeah OK let me just pull that out of my ass! Now, he is on a miners wage, 110 grand, plus!!! Also he is married to a woman who owns her own business and is also right up there in the money situation, she has no kids - so basically a double income no kids family ( minus child support which is pennies to him ) AND they wont cough up and pay for the full airfares... according to child support, he can make me pay 30% of the airfares, OK - fair enough one thinks, BUT he and his stupid wife got a consent order drawn up in November, stating that he will pay all airfares involved in seeing the children - every school holidays and Xmas! He has done this ONCE. So legally i don't have to pay shit, but if i don't - he wont have them, and then they miss out. I was so upset - sobbing my eyes out - I'm lookin at my kids and I'm thinking - I would beg borrow and steal to spend just one day with them. That man is a fool - But, still had me upset.

So overall, i didn't have a good day! I think i maybe pre menstrual - cause I'm very emotional and every little thing is bugging me. If i had a block of chocolate in this house last night i would of at the whole lot. I had nothing - trust me i looked, i ate nothing - cried instead and snuggled in bed with the electric blanket on! I did a mini workout this morning, and will do another this afternoon - Until then.....